As a women who made the decision to abort her second child in 1980, I understand the overwhelming emotions that many women experience. If you are like me, I know that the memory of my abortion was and still at times is painful. And, I know this might sound a little odd, but my joy came in my mourning. My peace came in my mourning. Let The Mending Cradle help you find peace.

The Lord our God said in Isaiah 43:25 

"I am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake and remembers your sin no more"

In 1973 the Supreme Court of the United States decision in Roe v. Wade, made it legal for women to obtain an abortion. Since this time there have been countless numbers of abortions performed each year just within the United States alone.

Those who have gone through an abortion often find it hard to overcome the after effects of such an ordeal. Some women and men are perfectly fine with this but more so than not the numbers sore high with women and men both who come to realize that this maybe was not the best choice at the time.

In 1980 I walked into an abortion clinic and made that same choice as millions of other women do, I had an abortion. This was my second pregnancy I was married on welfare and both I and my husband at that time were 16 years old.

Nonetheless, this moment severely change my life, sending me into a whirlwind of guilt, shame, and hidden pain from which it has taken years to recover.

I am like many women who undergo abortions, I suffered from Post Abortion Syndrome (PAS), which for me included; Depression and thoughts of suicide, guilt, shame, anxiety, Psychological "numbing", Sleep disruptions, Reduced motivation, Disruption in interpersonal relationships, Interruption of the bonding process with present and/or future children, Alcohol and drug abuse, self-punishing and self degrading behaviors, sometimes even a Brief reactive psychosis.

Now, I hope to help other women, men and teens who have experienced similar effects following an abortion. I have started The Mending Cradle a post abortive healing ministry. I have written the session’s curriculum from a biblical perspective and my own personal experience from my own abortion.

I spent twenty two years trying to mend the reputation of the evil woman who aborted her child. Smoking pot, snorting cocaine, drinking alcohol and dropping LSD became a habit and I liked it—it took away the pain for the moment. This became a habit I continued for a few years of my life. I was not ready to let go. I felt that I deserved to feel the way I felt, I deserved to live in constant sorrow and pain for aborting my baby. I should have stopped them, I should have walked out but I didn’t.

When I turned 39 years old I realized that letting go may be the best thing I could do for myself. Before that I had tried so hard to be the person society says I should be and the mother to my two boys I needed to be—but could not be. I found relief only when I brought my burden’s to Jesus Christ and allowed HIM to pick them up. You see I had the choice to hang on forever to this pain and silent torture or to let it go—I was tired so, I let it go and I let Jesus!

Through the years, I have come to understand just how many other women, men and teens actually suffer from PAS, and the devastating effect it has on their lives. My own experience of abortion and finding my healing is what led me to start The Mending Cradle.

The guilt and shame often prohibit people from seeking help. Recovery can happen, but it isn’t always easy. I admit this is no cakewalk, but once you face this, you can bear to deal with it. The outcome is worth the walk.

I have encountered many people who have told me they have done drugs and alcohol to cover the pain from their abortion, but they too also claimed the drugs and drinking has never helped heal their deepest pain of this experience. I’m here to tell you healing is possible.

It is time for your healing—stop clinging to yesterday and come and find forgiveness today.